It's been a day of music, song, and a feeling one only gets when spring has arrived and one's spirit soars with the clouds and birds..
Speaking of which, the songbirds here serenade me each and every night....it's amazing and amusing, how they prefer certain kinds of music to sing along with...
New Age music seems to be their favorite, just like me, however they sing along to Big Band and one even seemed to like "Johny B Good" song.

The dark gray weather, frequent mist and rain most days doesn't bother me, I sleep in, and move slowly then.
Each day has it's own rhymn, just like us humans, and I have no problem going with it.

I finally, thank God! feel as if I have come home. It has taken over a year to ajust, make accomodations for some situations, and fit in. I've always felt more like an ethereal spirit than a human, and settling down in one place hasn't been easy or a happy experience......
I was recently reminded of this, ( the part about not being happy anywhere) by a relative, and I had to agree.
It was then that I took stock of more than my life, of my very existence and while I didn't come away disappointed nor feeling that I'm "not enough" I decided to make some changes.

Change isn't easy, not when one is of a certain age....however it opens new doors.....

A neighbor that passed away recently had lived here for 20 plus years, as her daughter and I worked together, packing dishes, cleaning her mom's apt., we discussed life and death, and she shared photos of her mom from another time, when her mom had been a young woman....she shared with me that she'd never seen the pictures before...and how lost she felt now that mom was gone and she couldn't talk to her about the pictures, and her mom's life, and all the chances that were gone....

My older sister once said to me that "life is what happens while you're busy making plans" and I think that was a John Lennon quote. So I try now to live more in the moment, look forward to a happy future, and cherish the past, mistakes and all.

For that's what life is, a series of mistakes, and happenings....and choices.....some of us have made more mistakes, or choices that weren't the best, from whatever reason it matters not now, for it's past...it's what we take away from the mistakes and choices, what we learn from them, that counts.
As long as I"m doing the best I can, I'm happy with myself. And I'm happy.