It's been different today, I tried on purpose to change the way I do things, and put off somethings, and accomplished what I usually let slide.

It's kind of nice to see some of the paintings and pictures up on the walls now, and I put away some clutter so as not to distact from the beauty of the pictures.
I cleaned up the bathroom a few days earlier than usual, and decided to mix my whole milk with powdred milk to make it stretch further. I also have got the makings for a lovely garden salad ready to be tossed, and will take the time to do that along with making some hotdish I haven't made for ages.

The job that is daunting is the filing cabinet, I have new folders, new files, and it all needs to be put together and organized. I don't enjoy that very much, however love having organization in my record keeping, soooooooo guess tomorrow is the day for that, along with two small loads of laundry and maybe some baking.

I've gotten myself ( yesterday) a new microwave. It's a "high-end" one, and is so neat! No more having only half of the popcorn popped, no more needing the water hot before I put it in the microwave! The door closes quietly and it has quiet beeping when the food is done, versus the loud whine the old one had. The reason it's higher priced is that it's a microwave with grilling and browning capabilities. That'll be nice for cooking food on these hot days, without using my oven!

Having two fans now is really helping with keeping the apt. cool. The air-conditioner is about 15-30 years old, so just one fan couldn't circulate the air enough to get the bedroom cool too. Now I can get to sleep at night, before it was so hot that I felt like a sponge that was leaking it's water!

I have yet to read enough of the booklet about my new camera, so haven't been able to get pix posted that I've taken with the digital beast. I really love the clarity of the pictures, even though one can really see how old I"ve gotten these last few years!
I took a few last night, of the sunset. Have some of Chanel, and a couple of me. Guess that's it for now.

It's been taxing these past 6-7 months. More so than I anticipated. Next week the foot doctor is making a special brace for my left foot. Since I lose my balance so often I'm going to ask him for a cane too. I've come soooo close to falling again, numerous close calls. Two falls in two weeks is a lot!

The neighbor lady continues to bring me up fresh vegies from my garden, and they sure taste better than store bought!
HOpefully next week i can get back out there again and partake of the work involved, I sure miss that.

Friday is going to be my special day. There's oldies but goodies on Turner Classic Movie channel, Vincent Price movies from the late 50's to the mid 60's. It's going to be a day of no housework, no errands, just enjoyment. I'm unplugging the phone, and am gonna do as I darn well please all day!

Well I've rambled on long enough, time to start supper, watch the local evening news, and maybe accomplish one more chore today.
Later :)

Why is Blogger so difficult for me to figure out???
I try to sign in and it doesn't recognize my password, so I try to change it, follow the directions in the email from them, and it only gets worse!

Life here has been interesting if nothing else. Some guys were stealing vegetables out of our apt. complex garden. The seniors that planted the seeds, hoed the weeds, and watered the produce are now coping with two young men helping themselves to the goodies as they ripen!
what a couple of losers! Why don't these two guys go make their own garden?

My cat has really and truly adopted me now. It would be horrid to give her up after 3 months and having her finally settle in, and getting used to me and my life style. I can now afford to have the breed of dog I want and of course it'd be wrong to let my little kitty go.....oh well. I'm really happy she likes me and is content here.

The lump sum settlement finally came in, plus I"ll have a check for rent rebate this month, and then there's the money my son owes me for the check I wrote so he could pay for his car repairs........
Can't say I wish I was rich. I sure feel like it. I just don't know what to do with it now!
Never thought THAT would be a problem for me!
Guess I better watch out or people will come out of the woodwork to get some of it!

One of my neighbors came up to see this morning, she caught me off guard as I was sleeping in, and she gave me a delightful little gingerbread man welcome sign for my door. She knew I was looking for something and so she brought that to me. This is the little tiny lady that looks just like my greatgrama Mary. It's unreal there's such a strong resembalance!

I guess their was a circus in a neighboring town tonight, that's the kind of thing I could go to if I decide to buy a car. Owning a car in this day and age almost seems like a really bad idea for me. Least finacially. It's a never ending drain of money.....
Then again it's difficult to not be able to walk out the door and just go somewhere when I want to....
What a decision to make...........

Least I'm not out in a store somewhere blowing all this money all at once like I would have years ago...

I have a young 2nd cousin somewhere in California, wish I could reach him to talk to him. I dont' know as that he'd want to talk with me, guess I have to start reaching out and trying to see if I can make some family connections.....it worked a few years ago when I first started doing genealogy, maybe once more...
Well it's 2 o clock in the morning and I"m really tired.....guess it's time to crash and hope I can "sleep fast". I have a lot of things to do and places to go to today...

oh, by the way I tried to respond to "the park ranger" that left a comment here however my own blog tells me I'm not on the team! See what I mean! Headaches!

I haven't seen my grandchildren for 4 years now.... the oldest boy is 13, the only girl is 8 and the baby, whom I've never seen, is 4. I could repair the relationship, only I"d be opening myself to more stress and mistreatment again.

Life here is slow, very hot at 90 plus degrees for the last 3 weeks in a row....

I've been able to get myself a few nice things with the extra cash I've come into, nothing fancy, or expensive. I did get just about the cheapest radio there was, at Wal=Mart. It provides great sound at a low price, plays my CD's, and cassettes and doesn't have that terrible hum that my old player had.

Hopefully we'll get some of that rain is coming this way from the west, the ground is parched brown, and crunches instead of being lush green.
The corn crops are ruined and beans aren't growing big.

Only because we water our vegetable garden does our little apt. complex have fresh healthy produce. The stores are charging outrageous amounts for stuff that isn't tasty.

It seems that at every turn I receive sad news in the mail or online. I guess that's life, and one has to keep smiling and just keep on truckin....ya.

Last night I was lost in a dream world, one I'd choose over life in a heartbeat. It was that sweet. I was dreaming that a friend and me went to a movie, and of course my kid sister wanted to tag along. She was young again, so I must have been young too! The gentleman was tall, dark, and handsome. I felt so shy, yet risked everything by reaching for his hand to hold. He didn't refuse, and the dream was so innocent and tender from there onwards......at one point I walked out on a pier, swishing my toes in the water, and then delibertely fell into the lake and came up laughing.
We didn't have enough change for the movie so I opened a tool chest and dug around until I found coins for us, and then there was more obstacles to our seeing the movie, however we got a few kisses in and some hugs. I was so happy in the dream.............

And so it goes. Reality is much sharper, less warm, much less tender. People I love and care about have their own issues, their own lives to live, and have tossed me aside like so much used tissue. Oh well, I have things going on too, I really do wish them well, I just can't promise that I'll still be here for them when they remember that I exist.

It was heartbreaking to read of Valentine's suicide, what a month to discover it, the month of the prom we attended back in 1962...It leaves me with such an ache in my heart, such a big hole there now...unfinished business and pain.

Then a couple of weeks ago reading of my cousin's approaching death from cancer, she could be gone by now. Actually she's the daughter of my cousin T. and I'd been corresponding with her daughter and felt so sad that I didn't live closer so I could be a support person for her. She's only 14.

As soon as my life settles down a bit more, probably by spring, I'll be ready for a major life change. Again. I've heard that one can't run away from problems, for wherever ya go, there you are....well I've worked on my problems, and now am ready to leave this old life behind.
It's great to see that my adult son has made such immense progess, he's been doing things that tell all of us that he's alright. He's so comfortable where he's living, that the other day he went out into the community room in his cut-off sweat pants and tee-shirt and delivered two boxes of jigsaw puzzles to the manager. Wow! Before he'd never have answered the door in those shorts, much less worn them around his apt. complex.

One thing I've discovered by being alone again is that it's not much fun to cook for one's self.....it's too easy to just eat some cheese, drink some milk, have some toast....
Not self pity, just don't enjoy cooking for the self. More fun to cool for others.

Mostly miss my daughter and grandchildren.....and the days long gone by........ya.