the blues seem to overtaken me lately, perhaps because of the work involved in the moving process, moving both my son and myself....
Add to that the sinus infection, and now the sarcoid that's in my liver seems to haver taken over my skin now.........saw a dermatologist about a month ago. It sounds rather selfish and selfpitying I suppose, but I'd like to just crawl into a hole somewhere, like the sick animal I am and just die.

I tried last night to give myself a mental boost by ordering some Avon, a little makeup and some perfume. That's something I haven't done for, well decades I guess. Ahhhhhh, make that about 7 or 8 years.
There's a lady here that's lost 80 #'s and gave me her clothes that are my size. Great! Lots of pretty clothes, including a "little black dress" with a jacket, as long as the dress. There's a pretty rose colored sweater with matching scarf, a coral button down sweatshirt, and a couple of black blouses, one is silk.
Now I just need some black slacks, a skirt, and maybe if I'm lucky I'll find some foxy shoes....

I heard from my kid sister, she wanted to make sure I"d gotten moved and settled ok. She's such a peach :) I could take the greyhound bus to where she lives, or a train, however there'd be no place for me to stay or sleep....my joints and bones can't handle the hard ground anymore, never used to have a problem with that....
I know she'd love to visit, I would too. In person is easier to talk and laugh, share memories, and discuss issues.
I don't want th coming spring and summer lost to doing nothing in regards to seeing her ....it's been since about 1993 since we last saw each other. I had gone to her place in northern Wi. and took my youngest with me, it was a good visit. Now it's been what, about 14 years...God....
I've always been the one to go and visit her. She never used to come and visit me, not since 1972...

Wow when I start thinking back on "what was" it scares me...good thing I'm living in the present moment!
Hope today finds things going a little better....I sure need a good friend here, someone to talk to and to listen to....why is it that all the good ones are so far away???
For the recork, I"m "considering" getting a cat versus a dog, because of my health and also have to be fair and smart about a pet choice....as much as I love dogs, maybe couldn't do justice to caring for one...cats are easier....not as affectionate or devoted though....maybe I'll luck out and find an affectionate one :)



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